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Recipe 6: Sweet Chili Rolls
When I completed the 1000-mile running goal in 2011, I tracked each run on a calendar, the old-fashioned paper kind that I put on the wall. It hung in my kitchen, so I looked at it every day. For reasons I do not fully understand, I enjoyed seeing my progress through each month, a story told square by square each day. I still have that calendar, in my memory box, for it really holds so many memories from that year, more than just time spent pounding pavement (and treadmills).
I am again tracking on a calendar, and I again feel the same sense of accomplishment as I see squares fill with numbers. I respond well to numbers. I respond well to a goal and seeing the goal both grow and diminish. I feel in control of this goal, and I realize that the decisions I make affect the goal. If I don't run today, what does that mean for this week's goal? How do I balance such a goal and not fall into obsession over numbers?
The markings also serve as a reminder that I feel behind. At six weeks into the year, part of me feels that I should be farther along in mileage. I feel angst, and I talk myself down, telling myself that I know that I have half marathons coming up. Mileage will naturally increase as I enter a focused training stage. But that is still a ways off, so that angst still finds its way into my mind. Again, how do I not let numbers become an obsession? That sneaky "reframing" goal is still working to be heard.
On another note, this week's recipe, Sweet Chili Rolls, was the sloppy joe reinvented. Ground turkey and pinto beans make a very tasty sloppy joe. Who knew? Well, now this girl!
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